7 July 1994.
Jurongville.
I have superpowers.

Family.
Friends.
Music.
Violin &Guitar.
Ungu &Samsons.
Joe Jonas!
Yellowcard &Maroon 5.
Wentworth Miller.
Mummy's Cooking.
Coke Zero.
Chocolates!
Kelly Clarkson.
Sleep.
Him.

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August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 August 2008 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009

my family is really in danger. damn you lah PNB. you used my father's name to lend money from legal tailong. and you never pay! now, they are threatening to jail my father if he don't pay. my father sacrificed a lot for himjust to let him marry that ungrateful slut. $1800, is not that much if he pay regularly. i just dont understand why PNB did this. he knows we always helped him, we respect him but he treat us like ... urgh. when my father called him to pay, he switch off and dont care. wth man. you bloody ... if my father goes to jail, who will feed us? he is our breadwinner. God, help us. We are conned. i do hope PNB and his family will get double the trouble they gave us. i hope they will suffer worse than what we are suffering now. my father also stupid, lent to someone who can never be trusted for what? but i do know that it is because my father cares about PNB. his family and him were so nice to us until the time PNB betrayed us and created story.

PNB is my father's elder brother. Pak Ngah Bahar. that fxxxing idiot.

this is my second post for the day. im really proud of myself, this moment. not to exaggerate, but i felt that i am now stronger than i used to be since ive been diagnosed with SLE. ive been complaining, asking stupid question why, bragging about God's unfairness. now, i do realise that ive got everything i want, SLE is just something extra in my life to make me a better person. ive learnt what life really means. not vanity, not popularity, not attention. is what you want in your life that makes you happy, not others.

ive been through a lot of drastic changes. from being the most unlikable girl to someone who has to be injected every month with medications that makes you feel awkward. ive now understand and accept what God gave me. i may think that its the worst thing that can happen to me but its the best thing that God knows, happened to me.

I really want to be someone better. to be someone that people look to. theres some things that i dont get when everyone gets. i began to know that maybe i will get it one day and everyone wont. i have to believe

LIFE DEFINITELY SUCKS.
JUST DISCHARGED FROM HOSPITAL.
BEEN VOMITING.

MDM ROHANI SAID I MIGHT NEED TO REPEAT.
I HATE MYSELF.

EOY is here.
Just now was HML paper.
95% can be answered. Lucky i studied peribahasa until late night.

DnT is currently horrid.
Dad is so not helping.
I CANT STAND BUT CRY.

now art is on the way.
hais. life is so hard.

i do regret.